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  And amid all of this upheaval and confusion, Papa beamed and beamed on “his elegant fillies” and seemed to have forgotten Eleanor even existed. There were no tea-gowns from London for Eleanor…

  Not that she made any great show against them. She looked like a maid herself, in her plain dresses and sensible walking shoes. They didn’t have to bully her, not then, when they could simply overawe her and bewilder her and drown her out with their incessant chattering and tinkling laughter. And when she tried to get Papa alone to voice a timid protest, he would just pat her cheek, ask if she wasn’t being a jealous little wench, and advise her that she would get on better if she was more like them!

  She might have been able to rally herself after the first shock—might have been able to fight back. Except that all those far-off things in the newspapers about assassinations and Balkan uprisings that could never possibly have anything to do with the British Empire and England and Broom—suddenly did.

  In August, the world suddenly went mad. In some incomprehensible way, Austria declared war on Serbia, and Prussia joined in, and so did Germany, which apparently declared war on everybody. There were Austrian and Prussian and German troops overrunning France and England was at war too, rushing to send men to stop the flood. And though among the country-folk in Broom there was a certain level of skepticism about all this “foreign nonsense,” according to the papers, there was a sudden patriotic rush of volunteers signing up to go to France to fight.

  And Papa, who was certainly old enough to know better, and never mind that he already had been in the army as a young man, volunteered to go with his regiment. And the next thing she knew, he was a sergeant again, and was gone.

  Somehow Oxford never materialized. “Your dear father didn’t make any arrangements, child,” Stepmother said, sounding surprised, her eyes glittering. “But never mind! This will all be over by Christmas, and surely you would rather be here to greet him when he comes home, wouldn’t you? You can go to Oxford in the Hilary term.”

  But it wasn’t over by Christmas, and somehow Papa didn’t manage to make arrangements for the Hilary term, either. And now here she was, feeling and being treated as a stranger, an interloper in her own house, subtly bullied by glamour and not understanding how it had happened, sent around on errands like a servant, scarcely an hour she could call her own, and at the end of the day, retreating to this cold, cheerless closet that scarcely had room for her bed and her wardrobe and desk. And Papa never wrote, and every day the papers were full of horrible things covered over with patriotic bombast, and everything was wrong with the world and she couldn’t see an end to it.

  Two more tears burned their way down her cheeks. Her head pounded, she felt ill and feverish, she was exhausted, but somehow too tired to sleep.

  Today had been the day of the Red Cross bazaar and tea dance. Organized by Stepmother, of course—“You have such a genius for such things, Alison!”—at the behest of the Colonel’s wife. Though what that meant was that Eleanor and the maids got the dubious privilege of doing all of the actual work while Stepmother and “her girls” stood about in their pretty tea-gowns and accepted congratulations. Eleanor had been on her feet from dawn until well past teatime, serving cup after cup of tea, tending any booth whose owner decided she required a rest, watching with raw envy as her stepsisters and other girls her age flirted with the handsome young officers as they danced to the band Stepmother had hired for the occasion. Dances she didn’t know—dances to jaunty melodies that caused raised, but indulgent eyebrows among the village ladies. “Ragtime”—that’s what they called it, and perhaps it was more than a little “fast,” but this was wartime, and beneath the frenetic music was an unspoken undercurrent that some of these handsome young men wouldn’t be coming back, so let them have their fun…

  Eleanor had cherished some small hope that at last someone who knew her would see what Alison was doing and the tide of public opinion would rise up to save her. Alison, after all, was the interloper here, and with her ostentatious ways and extravagance, she had surely been providing more than a little fodder for the village cats. But just when she was handing the vicar’s wife, Theresa Hinshaw, a cup of tea, the woman abruptly shook her head a little, and finally looked at her, and frowned, and started to say something in a concerned tone of voice, out of the corner of her eye she saw Alison raise her head like a ferret sniffing a mouse on the wind, and suddenly there she was at the woman’s elbow.

  “Mrs.Hinshaw, how are you?” she purred, and steered Eleanor’s hope away into a little knot of other women.

  “I was wondering why we haven’t seen Eleanor about,” the vicar’s wife began.

  “Yes, she used to run wild all about the village, didn’t she, poor thing,” replied Alison, in a sweetly reasonable tone of voice. “A firm hand was certainly wanted there, to be sure. You’d never guess to look at them both that she’s the same age as my Carolyn, would you?”

  Eleanor saw Mrs.Hinshaw make a startled glance from the elegant Carolyn, revolving in the arms of a young subaltern, to Eleanor in her plain frock and apron and ribbon-tied hair, and with a sinking heart, saw herself come off second best.

  “No, indeed,” murmured Mrs.Sutherland, the doctor’s wife.

  Alison sighed heavily. “One does one’s poor best at establishing discipline, but no child is going to care for a tight rein when she’s been accustomed to no curb at all. Keep her busy, seems to be the best answer. And of course, with dear Charles gone—”

  The vicar’s wife cast a look with more sympathy in it at Eleanor, but her attention was swiftly recaptured by Lauralee, who simpered, “And poor Mama, not even a proper honeymoon!” which remark utterly turned the tide in Alison’s favor.

  From there it was all downhill, with little hints about Eleanor’s supposed “jealousy” and “sullenness” and refusal to “act her age”—all uttered in a tone of weary bravery with soft sighs.

  By the time Alison was finished, there wasn’t a woman there who would have read her exhaustion and despair as anything other than sulks and pouting.

  The music jangled in her ears and made her head ache, and by the time the car came for Alison and her daughters (“Dear little Eleanor, so practical to wear things that won’t be hurt by a little wet!”) and Eleanor was finished with the cleaning up and could trudge home again, she felt utterly beaten down. Her aching legs and feet were an agony by the time she reached an unwelcoming home and unfriendly servants. Alison and the girls held high celebration in the parlor, their shrill laughter ringing through the house as they made fun of the very people they had just been socializing with.

  She got plain bread-and-butter and cooling tea for supper in the kitchen—not even a single bite of the dainty sandwiches that she had served the ladies had she eaten, and of the glorious high tea that the cook had prepared for Alison and her daughters there was not a scrap to be seen. And by the time she went up all those stairs to her freezing-cold room, she’d had no strength for anything except hopeless weeping.

  What does she want from me? The question echoed dully in Eleanor’s mind, and there seemed no logical answer. She had no doubt that Alison had married Papa for the money—for all her airs at the tea, there was nothing in the way that Alison behaved in private that made Eleanor think that her stepmother found Papa’s absence anything other than a relief. But why did she seem to take such pleasure in tormenting Eleanor?

  There didn’t seem to be an answer.

  Unless she was hoping that Eleanor would be driven to run away from home.

  Oh, I would, but how far would I get? If that was what Alison was hoping, the very nature of this area—and, ironically, the very picture that Alison had painted of her stepdaughter today!—would conspire to thwart her. Eleanor wouldn’t get more than a mile before someone would recognize her, and after that carefully constructed fiction of a sullen and rebellious child that Alison had created, that same someone would assume she was running away and make sure she was caught and brought back!

  And if Alison had wanted to be rid of her by sending her away, surely she would have done so by now.

  She’ll never let me go, she thought bitterly. Not when she can make up lies about me to get more sympathy. And who believes in wicked stepmothers, anyway?

  She must have dozed off a little, because the faint, far-off sound of the door knocker made her start. At the sound of voices below, she glanced out the window to see the automobile belonging to Alison’s solicitor, Warrick Locke, standing at the gate, gleaming wetly in the lamplight. He looked like something out of a Dickens novel, all wire-rimmed glasses, sleek black suits and sleek black hair and too-knowing face.

  Oh. Him again. He seemed to call at least once a week since Papa had gone. Not that she cared why he came. It was odd for him to come so late, but not unheard-of.

  Someone uttered an exclamation of anger. It sounded like Alison. Eleanor leaned her forehead against the cold glass again; she felt feverish now, and the glass felt good against her aching head. And anyway, the window-seat was more comfortable than the lumpy mattress of her bed.

  Her door was thrust open and banged into the foot of the bed. She jerked herself up, and stared at the door.

  Lauralee stood in the doorway with the light behind her. “Mother wants you, Eleanor,” she said in an expressionless voice. “Now.”

  Eleanor cringed, trying to think of what she could have done wrong. “I was just going to bed—” she began.

  “Now,” Lauralee repeated, this time with force. And then she did something she had never done before. She took two steps into the room, seized Eleanor’s wrist, and dragged her to her feet. Then, without another word, she continued to pull Eleanor out the door, down the hall, and down the narrow servants’ stair.

  The stair came out in the kitchen, which at this hour was empty of servants—but not of people. Alison was there, and Carolyn, and Warrick Locke. The only light in the kitchen was from the fire on the hearth, and in it, the solicitor looked positively satanic. His dark eyes glittered, cold and hard behind the lenses of his spectacles; his dark hair was slicked back, showing the pointed widow’s peak in the center of his forehead, and his long thin face with its high cheekbones betrayed no more emotion than Lauralee’s or Carolyn’s. He regarded Eleanor as he might have looked at a black beetle he was about to step on.

  But Alison gave her a look full of such hatred that Eleanor quailed before it. “I—” she faltered.

  Alison thrust a piece of yellow paper at her. She took it dumbly. She read the words, but they didn’t seem to make any sense. Regret to inform you, Sergeant Charles Robinson perished of wounds received in combat—

  Papa? What was this about Papa? But he was safe, in Headquarters, tending paperwork—

  She shook her head violently, half in denial, half in bewilderment. “Papa—” she began.

  But Alison had already turned her attention away towards her solicitor. “I still say—”

  But Locke shook his head. “She’s protected,” he said. “You can’t make her deathly ill—you’ve tried today, haven’t you? And as I warned you, she’s got nothing worse than a bit of a headache. That proves that you can’t touch her directly with magic, and if she had an—accident—so soon, there would be talk. It isn’t the sort of thing that could be covered up.”

  “But I can bind her; when I am finished she will never be able to leave the house and grounds,” Alison snarled, her beautiful face contorted with rage, and before Eleanor could make any sense of the words, “you can’t touch her directly with magic” her stepmother had crossed the room and grabbed her by one wrist. “Hold her!” she barked, and in an instant, the solicitor was beside her, pinioning Eleanor’s arms.

  Eleanor screamed.

  That is, she opened her mouth to scream, but quick as a ferret, and with an expression of great glee on her face, Carolyn darted across the room to stuff a rag in Eleanor’s open mouth and bind it in place with another.

  Terror flooded through her, and she struggled against Locke’s grip, as he pulled her over to the hearth, then kicked her feet out from underneath her so that she fell to the floor beside the fire.

  Beside a gap where one of the hearthstones had been rooted up and laid to one side—

  Locke shoved her flat, face-down on the flagstone floor, and held her there with one hand between her shoulder blades, the other holding her right arm, while Alison made a grab for the left and caught it by the wrist. Eleanor’s head was twisted to the left, so it was Alison she saw—Alison, with a butcher’s cleaver and a terrible expression on her face. Alison who held her left hand flat on the floor and raised the cleaver over her head.

  Eleanor began screaming again, through the gag. She was literally petrified with fear—

  And the blade came down, severing the smallest finger of her left hand completely.

  For a moment she felt nothing—then the pain struck.

  It was like nothing she had ever felt before. She thrashed in agony, but Locke was kneeling on her other arm, with all his weight on her back and she couldn’t move.

  Blood was everywhere, black in the firelight, and through a red haze of pain she wondered if Alison was going to let her bleed to death. Alison seized the severed finger, and stood up. Lauralee took her place, holding a red-hot poker in hands incongruously swallowed up in oven-mitts. And a moment later she shoved that poker against the wound, and the pain that Eleanor had felt up until that moment was as nothing.

  And mercifully, she fainted.

  She woke again in the empty kitchen, her hand a throbbing sun of pain.

  Like a dumb animal, she followed her instincts, which forced her to crawl to the kitchen door, open it on the darkness outside, on rain that had turned to snow, and plunge her hand into the barrel of rainwater that stood there, a thin skin of ice forming atop it. She gasped at the cold, then wept for the pain, and kept weeping as the icy-cold water cooled the hurt and numbed it.

  How long she stood there, she could not have said. Only that at some point her hand was numb enough to take out of the water, that she found the strength to look for the medicine chest in the pantry and bandage it. Then she found the laudanum and drank down a recklessly large dose, and finally took the bottle of laudanum with her, stumbling back up the stairs to her room in the eerily silent house.

  There she stayed, wracked with pain and fever, tormented by nightmare, and unable to muster a single coherent thought.

  Except for one, which had more force for grief than all her own pain.

  Papa was dead.

  And she was alone.

  2

  March 10, 1917

  Broom, Warwickshire

  THE SCRUB-BRUSH RASPED BACK AND forth against the cold flagstones. Eleanor’s knees ached from kneeling on the hard flagstones. Her shoulders ached too, and the muscles of her neck and lower back. You would think that after three years of nothing but working like a charwoman, I would have gotten used to it.

  The kitchen door and window stood open to the breeze, airing the empty kitchen out. Outside, it was a rare, warm March day, and the air full of tantalizing hints of spring. Tomorrow it might turn nasty again, but today had been lovely.

  Not that Eleanor could get any further than the kitchen garden. But if she could leave her scrubbing, at least she could go outside, in the sun—

  But Alison had ordered her to scrub, and scrub she must, until Alison came to give her a different order, or rang the servants’ bell. And if Alison “forgot,” as on occasion she did, then Eleanor would be scrubbing until she fainted from exhaustion, and when she woke, she would scrub again…

  The nightmare that her life was now had begun on the eighteenth of December, three years, two months, and a handful of days ago, when Alison Robinson hacked off the little finger of her left hand, and buried it with spells and incantations beneath the third hearthstone from the left here in the kitchen. Thus, Alison Robinson, nee Danbridge, had bound Eleanor into what amounted to slavery with her black magic.

  Magic…

  Who would believe in such a thing?

  Eleanor had wondered how Alison could have bewitched her father—and it had turned out that “bewitched” was the right word for what had happened. That night and the nights and days that followed had given her the answer, which only posed more questions. And if she told anyone—not that she ever saw anyone to tell them—they’d think her mad.

  For it was madness, to believe in magic in these days of Zepps and gasworks and machine guns.

  Nevertheless, Alison was a witch, or something like one, and Warrick Locke was a man-witch, and Lauralee and Carolyn were little witch’s apprentices (although they weren’t very good at anything except what Alison called “sex magic” and Eleanor would have called “vamping”). Alison’s secret was safe enough, and Eleanor was bound to the kitchen hearth of her own home and the orders of her stepmother by the severed finger of her left hand, buried under a piece of flagstone.

  She dipped the brush in the soapy water and moved over to the next stone. Early, fruitless trials had proved that she could not go past the walls of the kitchen garden nor the step of the front door. She could get that far, and no farther, for her feet would stick to the ground as if nailed there, and her voice turn mute in her throat so that she could not call for help. And when Alison gave her an order reinforced by a little twiddle of fingers and a burst of sickly yellow light, she might as well be an automaton, because her body followed that order until Alison came to set her free.